my shampoo isn’t the culprit

i miss blogging but i’ve been pretty busy lately so i couldn’t find time to scribble my thoughts for all the world to see–as if!  i’m trying to make this post seem light but the reason i’m putting up with my snail-paced connection is the urgent need to unleash all my pent up emotions. 

tonight happens to be one of those nights when i find myself contemplating on things i normally just shrug off.  in the privacy of the bathroom i found myself feeling so alone and sad.  emotions that often haunt me when i’m at my weakest.  yes, contrary to what other people think, i do become vulnerable from time to time.

i feel so alone because i feel as though í’ve no one to confide in.  i feel sad because i feel as though no one else will understand where my pain is stemming from. 

habi’s just a phone call away, my friends and i are just an SMS apart–but there are things that i couldn’t talk to them about, stuff i’d rather keep to myself…   

i cower in fear each time i feel the need to share my burden to people close to me–not because i am scared of getting misunderstood but more of being uncertain of whether my concerns are worthy of their time or not…