should i stay or should i go?

i am TORN.

and i’m chickening out again.

my fears resurfaced.

what do i do?

flip a coin?

pray for signs?

ask for advice?

follow my instincts?

changes

first off, i haven’t blogged in a long time because i became pretty busy with work.  add to that the fact that i no longer have friendster, blogger and youtube access in the office–a luxury we used to enjoy.  i’m not complaining though–i mean, i totally get it and i respect management’s decision to have those sites blocked–come to think of it, they really sometimes get in the way of work. and at this point, the last thing we need at the office are distractions.

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habi and i are contemplating on finally getting a house somewhere in the cainta or montalban area.  we’re now resigned to the fact that his brother is never leaving their parents’ house so in the event that we get married, we will really need a house of our own.  i mean, it’s obvious that we’d be better off on our own–we’re far more independent than they are.  my only concern is that, i’m not really comfortable with the idea of leaving habi’s parents in their care if ever–believe me when i say i have every reason to be apprehensive…readers of this blog know what i’m talking about.

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the captain has become our client.  so now we’re on a strictly business plateau. i still dread seeing him again–i dunno even know how i’d react if ever i get to meet with him to discuss projects and stuff….

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i still have a zillion things to talk about but i’m sleepy now so if our neighbor gets a little bit more generous tomorrow night, then perhaps i’ll blog again when i get to access their wi-fi.